Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Love your self

you have to love yourself before someone else can love you. The reason for this is simple - our ideal partner is a reflection of us...
Each of us has a unique belief system, a way of seeing the world that is slightly different to everyone else’s. It’s almost like our ego has a fingerprint. What turns us on, what turns us off. What we feel is important.
The types of people that come into our lives are affected by our beliefs. We meet people who have made the same sorts of choices we make. All these choices reflect our values and our way of being from day to day, minute to minute.

The problem comes when you are romantically attracted to people who are not on your wavelength. This means, people who are not right for you, but who have something that you respect, or admire, or just desire. You want to be with the other person to feel good about yourself, to fill some hole inside you or to change what other people think about you.

If you like yourself, you will like the people you naturally meet, and they will like you. If you don’t like yourself, you will waste energy trying to get with people who aren’t like you, or you will settle for being with someone you don’t like.

Once you accept yourself you will realise your true motives for wanting someone you can’t have. If you want to be with them to compensate for your own shortcomings, you will no longer want them. If you want them because you want to be like their ideal partner, then you will become that person. So there is never a need to change yourself for someone else.

Accept yourself, and you will like the potential partners you can get.
Improve yourself, and you will get the partner you want.

Sunday, February 9, 2014


So what exactly does having hope get you?

Hope is one of the most powerful emotions we have. Hope is what gets us out of bed in the morning when our lives seem to be falling apart. Hope keeps pushing forward because it believes you can reach your goal. Hope is the fire that burns inside us when we know tomorrow won’t be any better than today, but it is one step closer to a day that will be good. Hope is a key component that allows us to dare to dream and move toward freedom.

And my hope....

I have so many hopes for these recent years. I've just met the special thing which changes my whole life. I'm glad and thankful to God because He has shown me the precious vision, a great mision, a strong desire, a wonderful journey, various obstacles, and a gorgeous partner.

I wrote my hope down, because i know, Hope is a dream that doesnt sleep :)

God, I sincerely thankyou for this all.
Thank God I've found him, found them, found this blassed life.

Friday, February 7, 2014

what if...

I knew I loved you before I met you-- Savage Garden.

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant
And there it goes,
I think I found my best friend
I know that it might sound
More than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only the sense of completion
And in your eyes, I see
The missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound
More than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you


well, it's an old song. but sure, it is one of my favorite songs. The meaning of the lyric is so deep. 

what if it really happen in my future life? that i love someone who i had never met before...
what if it really happen in my future life? that i choose someone who i had never known before..

Thursday, February 6, 2014


so finally, I dicided to write this. 

Honestly, during the last semester, i felt so stressed. Well, I had a super busy time with a stack of exams consecutively. So, during at that time, I wonder if I was not a human (?) beside a robot which must has a brilliant brain. I became sleepless and I had to memorize all the words in the book which I don't understand why I have to do that. Seems like a robot? I guess yes.

I have to struggle passing this semester with 31 sks. As a good human being, education should be a part in my daily life. Those who give up on education, they must live in bitterness of ignorance.

In the middle of boredom with that campus-thingy, suddenly I watched  a news from television about young men who have drunk, something called "miras oplosan" just for having fun, and…experimenting (!) They mixed some dangerous chemicals into the water, like sprintus (?) -the material which I commonly use for my lab skill class- Oh, come on, you must be kidding. Those chemicals absolutely contain a total toxic for our body.

Can you guess what is the result? Yap yap. They were collapse, fainted. Well, I am interested in comparing these two contrasting conditions. First, my condition which is stressful with all the burden of education, with the hardest way hoping everything ends as soon as possible. Meanwhile, as the opposite condition, the “Miras-men” choose to enjoy their life in the shortest way with the simplest way.

I hate those people, who I called them “crum”. Don’t they think how if they die? If they survive, how much money is needed for the treatment? If they still alive, how is their family’s feeling? still care? Or neglecting…

How many more of young people who are thinking of killing himself by drinking cheap or “oplosan” alcohol? I think that It feels better if all the men who wasted his life should be wiped out, disappeared from this earth. The Earth is already crowded by humans. The occupants should be selected, whose brains are still sane and truly appreciate the life that could live here. While others (who don't appreciate their life) should go to Mars, or wherever...please don't fill my earth with your stupidity. Do not steal the oxygen (?) if it turns out you were reluctant to live. Just go !

What kind of thinking is this?

I just don’t like them.